Phone Calls

Hi Mom,

I was having an odd moment today. I wanted to call and talk to you. And it always amazing me how 1) I get that urge in general as you know my aversion to phones is quite large, 2) that you clearly aren't an option as someone to call. But I talked to my usual people but it wasn't enough. I realized that it was you that I really wanted to call because no matter how boring my life may seem to others you were either truly interested or faked it really well (which is equally appreciated). I'm getting married in like 70-ish days and in 3 weeks it will mark the one year mark of not having you around. I just want to skip over the month of May. Dad wants to do something together with just the three of us which I like but I don't know if I can handle being sad in the middle of such a crazy month. Its going to fly by or be really messy. Maybe you can stop by a dream of mine and fill me in on your life, I wish you could respond to my posts.

Love you always and forever.