I took Lucy out there with me last time with every hope that it would feel right and it didn't. Lucy is like my last little piece I have you right now and I want to keep her but, she didn't like the apartment and clearly missed everything at home. There was one night where she looked so sad, just like she did after you died, and it broke my heart. She still misses you, Kallie says that she will sometimes wander the house looking for you. We all miss you. So, Kallie officially gets her now because I want whats best for Lucy, even though it's hard to let the last of you go. I know Kallie will take care of her, but it's still hard.
The dog that we are looking at is named Norah and she's almost a year old, a corgi mix, very lovable and likes to swim! Here's a photo of her:
I'll be sure to let you know how it goes and if we get her. Chris told his mom about her and she's excited that she might get her first grandkid (that's what she called her)... his dad overheard this and almost fainted, haha.
I let Kallie down tonight and feel really bad about it. She wanted to carve pumpkins tonight and I agreed. Unfortunately, as you know, I suck at managing my time and overbooked myself. I felt like the worst person in the world telling her I wasn't going to come. I pictured that she had everything ready to go and how disappointed she looked when I called to cancel. I rearranged my schedule tomorrow so I can go over there and do what we've always done every year since forever--carve pumpkins together. Only you aren't here to take the pictures. I'll be sure to take a few for you though, I try to remember stuff you did so that things can carry on somewhat like they did. Only not really because you not being here really makes a huge difference (go figure). Well, it's really late and I have stuff to deal with tomorrow. Someday I will be sure to tell you all about my moron and how it's ruining my life. But that's for another time and place.
Goodnight mom, love you.
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